- Actually now my class 11th exam is going on, and I have started going to the exam taking the holy tilak on my forehead, but as I belong to a family of non devotee and secular, intellectual type of Bengali family, I can sense that they don't like to see me doing all these,so when I was setting off for school, my mom told me, that I am not at all looking good with these tilak, then told me if you really love God, then keep the devotion in the heart don't show it off,
I remained silent.
But actually if I draw a tilak on my forehead it is not to show off to anyone, most of my school mates, teachers make different comments on that(I hope everyone can realise which type of comments ), which is not quite easy to digest, but still I do take it on my forehead as I feel very cool, strongly protected and soothing from mind..after hearing that I was feeling remarkably miserable, I was feeling to hide myself from others because everyone was casting a different look on me,It worked for long, when I was entering the school, one school staff asked me if I had become something Hare Krisna devotee,? I proudly said -"Yes"
In the classroom one madam asked me why I am asking someone question when I am pretending to be a 'sadhu' by taking tilak?(though I was not asking him answer the boy was asking me, and I was telling him that I will tell him later)
I was really feeling that the whole world is against me,
But after sometime during the exam one teacher came and asked me if I have taken a diksha alrealy? When I told that it is not that, I just like to have a tilak, then he told me I am looking nice with the tilak, I felt that probably it was Krisna's reward for me.
Why everyone mocks, opposes when I am trying to follow the dharma to which they really belong.
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