ALONE IN BODY
BUT NOT IN SPIRITS
I guess everyone is born with fear. It taps at your shoulder at every every step of your life. It intensifies and grips you tighter if you weak, diseased or helpless. Loneliness gobbles you up and the heart stops seeing the dreams. Suddenly the signboard of ‘ NO THROUGHFARE’ blocks and halts the race of your life.
So was my case. Being a patient of ‘LIMB GIRDLE MYOPATHY’ fear gripped me at every step of my life. Ironically it was not the disease but the fear which handicapped me, restricted me, confounded me and strangulated me. O! how I wanted to get rid of the fearful fear.
They said,’ if you do a thing which you fear the most to do then you will not fear it anymore’. So I followed this philosophy to certain extent and completed my post graduation in ‘biotechnology’ from IIT Roorkee. After passing out, again the fear of pursuing a career in foreign land gripped me hard and I gazed google eyed at everyone for help, yet help was the last thing I could ever come across. There were alwys speculations and doubts in best possible solutions and ofcourse the fear stayed there like a monster in my mind.
Then by causeless mercy of Krishna help descended in the form of Srila Prabhupad books especially BG-As-It-Is. And miraculously I found the answers to all my questions and doubts. I was not alone or afraid of anything not even death.
This mercy descended like soothing divine peace over my lamenting soul. I became quite, calm and composed as I became aware of the truth that I may be alone in my body but I was not and am not alone in my spirits . Krishna resides in me and outside me in my better or my worse.
Chant,
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