Four Biscuits of Self Respect
Some incidents of life teach us a sublime lessons and that’s up to us to take positive or negative out of it. But sometimes, we tend to take our own time, our own pace in taking the lessons in, that is conditioning.
We have one outsourced maid in our office, her job is to serve us with tea/coffee/biscuits. I don’t take tea / coffee but I often take biscuits. She used to serve me unwillingly and most of the time, she used to skip me as well. One particular week, I observed that she has not been serving me and willingly missing me very often. I too wanted her attention, I too wanted her service. My mind and intelligence started having inner fights.
Intelligence – ignore those four biscuits, anyway its of not very good quality.
Mind – why should I ignore, its free, everyone is enjoying, I should also get.
Intelligence – Krishna is making you get detached from unwanted things, He is showing you humility.
Mind – Humility in the office leads to exploitation, be practical.
Ultimately the Mind won the tussle and one day, I just blasted her for not serving me. From that day on wards, she serves me regularly.
My ego won the battle against her ego but at what cost? Now she might be serving me but not with Love but with the sense of duty.
This shows that one can be so attached to prestige, position and dignity and even to biscuits. The mind can really bring havoc in the daily life. Did my mind wanted those four biscuits, off course Not, it was looking for self-respect. Every situation is a learning, whether we fall down for some biscuits for self - respect or we fall down because of some unwanted situation in life. Till the time we are in the queue of Krishna Consciousness, purity is guaranteed, there is a hope, there is hope of getting rid of all these impurities in due course of time, the element that is wanted is patience.
By Ashish Kumar
ICC Bangalore